LOST

Its hard being an optimist in a shitty world. Everytime things look your way, someone ends up shittin on the parade. Probably the main reason for being anti-social. People will always end up pissing you off, disappointing you, letting you know that just because we're human and so advanced, emotionally and spiritually, people are really shallow and self-centered. And so it creates someone like me, always an optimist and always willing to give people the benefit of the doubt. What a fool I am. Always willing to hope that people will surprise you, figure out the meaning of priorities, morals, common sense. Don't look to religion or schools to pass on the things that matter in life: living, treating people with respect, and being responsible for yourself. We as parents, mentors, or friends need to teach these things to our children; share with them our dreams of a perfect world. I can't believe how wonderful of children I have. How beautiful and complete they are becoming. How respected they are by their peers and the parents of their peers. We are always getting compliments from parents who spend time with them and they constantly are suprising me. They are the true fountain of youth and I am proof of that. 37 goin on 27, sometimes 17. So I guess its fate as part of being human that my kids will eventually disappoint me. Only for a pessimist. Why do parents always rate and judge their kids? Isn't true love supposed to be unconditional? Acceptance is really hard for humans. Our prejudices and lifestyles get in the way of open mindedness and love. We are so biased its pitiful! They call it love; but is that really anything close to LOVE? Guess I belong on a commune somewhere in India or something. Just finished watching season 1 of LOST and all I could keep thinking was how wonderful it would be to get lost.....away from people. I'm in a shitty mood tonight and pissed at the world. Not even sure why I started babbling this nonsense tonight.

Time to medicate
So I can vacate
I'm already late for fate
To placate my date
Walk through the gate
Alleviate
Feel the hate
Becoming irate
Urging to mate
Not in this state
I'll wait.

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