Buck's Babble

If ifs and buts were cherries and nuts every day would be a merry christmas. Deal with it! Sometimes things just don't don't go your way...the wonders of life. Suck it up and drive on!

Hey, guys, how do I look?! 

Spanky lookin to unload! 

AHHHHH! 

My bed tonight! 

The Soccer Queen. They won their game 3-1 on Saturday 

Art by emily 

Blue Horizons 

Its hard being an optimist in a shitty world. Everytime things look your way, someone ends up shittin on the parade. Probably the main reason for being anti-social. People will always end up pissing you off, disappointing you, letting you know that just because we're human and so advanced, emotionally and spiritually, people are really shallow and self-centered. And so it creates someone like me, always an optimist and always willing to give people the benefit of the doubt. What a fool I am. Always willing to hope that people will surprise you, figure out the meaning of priorities, morals, common sense. Don't look to religion or schools to pass on the things that matter in life: living, treating people with respect, and being responsible for yourself. We as parents, mentors, or friends need to teach these things to our children; share with them our dreams of a perfect world. I can't believe how wonderful of children I have. How beautiful and complete they are beco...

Wondrous Bewilderment

Woke one morning dead in bed Thought that day I'd lost my head Out the door they spread their lies Take me deeper in your eyes Tumbling past, there lays a rest A peaceful place to build a nest Sounds like wishes movin' in Remember the things I thought again Falling through, trapped in time In my world of pantomime. Leave my tracks in fields of wheat wrapped within my private sheet Hallowed ground hears endless cries A mountain deep within me sighs A day beyond the yesterday The future hears what you may say Catch my tears from out of site Dreamless days turn into night Thundering shadows Deepening shallows Each word a wonder sounds so right Echoes make the darkness bright Frantic shallow breaths Scattered nameless deaths You'll find it in the light Don't ask how, just feel the flight.

Remembering a dream I had of yesterday Don't know what it was about It just faded away Falling through a window you built in my wall Don't know which one, can't remember them all Before I crash, won't you take the wheel Don't know where I am It all seems so real Forget about what happened in my head it left me searching through things I'd read Chorus Cutting through the smoke Caught in life's spoke Twirling by the dayside way Don't know what there's left to say In the end I fixed what broke.

Kickin it good today and watching the NFL. Awesome to see the New Orleans Saints win their game considering they have no home stadium and probably wont play a single home game this year. Sam spent the night at a friends and Emily did too. So, I took off, went to USA Gas and spent 3 hours catching up on work I hadn't done there for over a month. Felt good to get it done. Ang took a sick day Friday which was nice to have her home an extra day. Emily had a soccer game Saturday morning after dropping Ang off at work. 3 hours of driving by noon. I could just feel the money melting into the highway. Watching the 49ers now, might have a decent team this year. Gonna be a tough first game against the Rams. Otherwise, life goes on. Love.

My pet is a duck. His name is Dick. He wades into the pond. Dick likes to swim in the pond. He kicks his feet and legs to make a big splash. Dick dips into the pond. Then he lets the sun dry his coat as he floats. He goes "Quack, quack" as he sits on the pond. Dick pecks at bugs with his bill as he stands by the side of the pond. The pond is the home of six more ducks. It is fun to see the ducks play tag. Taken from: Morrow, Coletta. My Pet Dick . Beka Book Publications. 1979.

Well, Ang came back and tried to get on a FEMA team through her volunteer dept to head out today or the next couple. Would have been a great experience, addition to her resume, ability to use her skills, and something she would never forget. Unfortunately, finances are going to keep her from going. FEMA reimburses her volunteer dept (probably through the county treasurer like it does now) and so she might be gone 1-3 months, and not get anything until after months after she got back. Unfortunately our family has to keep on living too. The pay was good I just wish they could do it like direct deposit or something. So, she'll be back to Goosenest Friday morning. Wish she could have helped....what a fuckin mess out there!! I have no more tears to give. Both kids are in soccer. Emily will be giving the clarinet a go this year. Sam also wants to play basketball. Sam has different classrooms and teachers for each subject this year so that's pretty cool. We'll see if h...

Veggin all weekend. Working around the house and garden. Emily has been spending the night with a friend of hers who is Karuk Indian. What a doll she is. Emily spent the night there last night and so, as usually happens, the next night is over here, which is tonight. I don't care, whatever to have some fun. I'm watching drag racing and cant keep the tube off of Katrina coverage all weekend. Spaghetti tonight witha sauce which I add meatballs and garlic-sauteed zuchinni from the garden. Awesome taste and the kids love it. One great thing about having a garden always is the kids have grown up loving veggies. Have you seen the movie Supersize Me ? Great docu about Fast Food (especially Micky Dees), obesity in America, and health in general. Pretty eye opening how our country has become so fast food and less good healthy homecooking. Our kids and their future are the ones who will suffer. I made my kids watch it to maybe open their eyes to how corporate America contro...

I am without words for Katrina and the Gulf Coast. Such a mix of emotions. Tears and sadness for the misery people are suffering; anger that our leaders couldn't respond or figure out that we needed to respond until way too late; embarrassed to be an American when our ever-growing FAT people cannot even save themselves---and all paraded in their huge glory across the global screen; embarrassed at the poverty that finally reared its ugly head for all Americans to see. Yes, we have millions living in poverty across the country as most head for relaxation over Labor Day. Enough, thank goodness for people willing to help. Need to send in a SF unit to take out the criminal element throughout the city. Take away our social controls and people revert to pure fucking stupidity. Anyway, I'm heartbroken and at the same time so disappointed in people, especially under the current administration. Yreka has gotten together a crew with the Red Cross and will be heading there if they h...